March 22, 2010

Well today is about the same was yesterday. There hasnt been much change at all. We have a LONG way to go.

We was told that he will NEVER BE ABLE TO WORK!!!

Bruce's heart is only working at 15% on its own. THey have placed balloons inside his arteries, to help him heart pump the blood to and from his heart. After a heart attach this isnt uncommon, it gives the doctors time to see if the heart is strong enough to recover.

He had 2 of his sisters here today from Radcliff. Anderia and Jackie, that really helped him understand and see that he doesnt have to be alone in all of this. Even tho he has family in 3 different states than him, they are all pulling for him. That is what family is for.

He is going to really need everyone now. Even if its a funny post card that you ran across, a phone call to say YEA! anything....

I cant do this alone, i have to be strong for him, but when stress is a factor its hard on everyone involved.

When i first met bruce i was just a person. I could have careless about family. NOW he has taught me that family is everything.... that im not just a person i am HUMAN, that i CAN stand strong and that im a go getter' I work hard to make sure that Bruce has all his medication that he needs, but when you have to sit and debate, a must have bill, like rent, electric, water or food... or do i get his medication. its hard we do without of a LOT of things... and we shouldnt have too.... when i get Bruce his medication something in our house gets turned off... and i dont hear the end of it from BRuce... when i pay the bill so that we can have lights, then i hear it from Bruce... so i get stuck... do we eat this week or does BRuce get his medication. No one should have to go thought what i am going through now. I sit here at the hospital 90% of the time... and wonder when i graduate college in a few months will i make a difference. i hope that i will, within my own family. Bruce is my support system with going to school :) its nice to know that he is thinking of US, when he needs to think about HIMSELF. I dont tell him everything, i dont share a lot of things with him that are in the bill department. I know how he is.. he will stress to a point where he will go out and hustle so that we can have... and then he will deal with the consequences later.